[Whispers]
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Hello, I miss you quite terribly.
:(
7:25 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[As many times as I blink]
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
I'll think of you tonight.
The spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly.
1:27 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[can i be the girl]
Sunday, January 31, 2010
that you met in the coin laundry?
Oh do you have a story,
Do you have a story for me?
Do you know the one where
We'll all live happily
D'ya, d'ya?
Ah, damn cute lah the song.
Gonna go prepare for work at Novena now... Sunday night at Novena = sure GG.
Worse still is if I'm gonna get lost on my way there again.
Last time I did, I ended up in Tan Tock Seng hospital... stupid stupid maze.
4:02 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Mmm whatcha say?]
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Bloody rushed for projects...2 weeks to hand in everything...spend hours and hours, sometimes past midnight in studio mixing and editting.
Lesson learnt - always save your work every frikking 5min just in case 'the beach ball of death' appears and shuts everything.
And I was complaining to Boobs yesterday about how I have to work a full 11 to 1130 today.
And she went 'Whole day ah?'
I said 'No, 3Omin'... Duh of course it's the whole day.
But she got my sarcasm.
Then our friend went,
'Huh??? Like that you earn how much? 2.50?!'
I shall learn from Leonard (Big Bang Theory) and carry around a 'Sarcasm Sign' next time.
2:15 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[take time to realize]
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.
3:20 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[nothing turns out right]
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I call it Love.
But now I think it might just be Stockholm Syndrome.... Hmmmm....
What the fuck is wrong with you, and you, and you?
I am so fucking confused and angry and disappointed.
YOU, are fucking screwed up, how do we work things out when you are just so bent on blaming and hating the world but yourself. There is no room for change.
and YOU, are so disappointing, I took you for a real friend, thanks.
and YOU, are just plain fucking mean and it's not even funny, just plain fucking insulting.
Ahhhh, fuck everyone.
2:29 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[wtf is a Vampaneze?]
Monday, January 11, 2010
...a Japaneze Vampire?
And I swear Chris Massoglia looks like a LOT like Alex Band (The Calling), a younger dark haired version.
Only in the Angmoh world does being a vampire seem like the coolest thing in the world, starting with Dracula and his whole stud-thing going on.
BUT nobody ever wants to be a fucking Chinese vampire...and what? Wear some super outdated ancient outfit and jump around with your tongue out.
Edward Cullen is like gonna zoom his way out of trouble, and Xiao Ming (a suitable name for a Chinese vampire, and basically everything else that's Chinese) couldn't hop fast enough to save his bloodsucking life from the sun.
I have NAFA coming up this week on Thursday...
Sigh, if only I wear a vampire (angmoh version), I'd finish my 2.4 in like 10 seconds...
But til then, I'm just gonna limp my way to the finish line.
Okay, I gotta sleep, gotta be in time for 9am work, scoopydoopydoo~
Sigh, if I were a vampire (angmoh version) though, I wouldn't be wasting time on things like sleep.
I ever wondered though, do vampires have menstruation? Then what? Do they eat their own tampons? :/
It's almost as intriguing as trying to figure out whether mermaids need to poop, and how.
I know, it's amazing what I spend half my days thinking about.
Ah, nothing like saving the world from a bunch of zombies before bedtime, trust me.
And Joonchee NBCB, stop wearing that 3D shirt...sore eyes ah!
Yes, I have slight ADD and I tend to digress.
I meant, goodnight.
Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
4:11 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[if I knew then]
Saturday, January 09, 2010
what I know now,
still I wouldn't change a thing.
Shorty and I just watched this short 30min movie,
I thought it was quite a sweet show, so I'm gonna share it here.
[MARRIAGE SIMULATOR]
Marriage seems like such a scary deal... It can take a couple madly in love and burn them down to nothing at all.
Luckily it's a weird happy ending.
I'm no marriage counsellor, but I have my own beliefs on how this thing works and...(getting ahead of myself eh, only being 20 and all)
It's normal to want to live together and be with the one we love everyday, but when we do get that, we start to forget that this is the same wonderful person we fell for, and start finding fault with everything.
Besides the friction, we start taking them for granted, and then like with everything else, we only realize it when we're about to lose them.
Actually, it is the same with everyone else, family and friends too... Seems that people as get too close, they see each other for who the other person really is, and then you somehow, even without valid reason start to not be able to stand him/her.
And that's when we have to learn to "Accept" things and people as they are.
"Acceptance" is the key difference between loving someone for who you think they are, and actually loving someone for who they really are.
And then with "Acceptance", comes "Compromise", like how cheese comes with Nachos... Without it, ("Acceptance & Compromise", not Nachos & cheese), no relationship would ever work out. Not with your partner/spouse, your parents/siblings or even your pets.
Any and everyone can say they love dogs, and get a puppy because it's all cute and cuddly.
But if you're gonna kick it around because it's taking a crap all over the place, and yet not want to dirty your hands potty-training it, then it just comes to show you are not ready to be a pet owner in the first place.
Accepting the people around you is the biggest part of growing up to me, because it's through getting to know them, that you learn more about yourself, on a emotional-spiritual level...
And that's when you take the biggest step of all, and Accept yourself.
Every relationship requires mutual respect and equal give and take, because everyone is a separate individual of his/her own with his/her own life too, before and after marriage.
So even though things like marriage are scary, Love will still prevail to keep everyone together...
Otherwise, I have no clue what we're in this world for...
I know in this life, nothing is like in the dramas, there is no fairytale endings, no princes... But if I stop having faith in all these silly things that I grew up believing, then I am just as good as dead.
And this is me, losing my point and sounding all weird cause I am thinking out loud at 4 in the morning....
Goodmornight everyone... I have one more day of Open House to go...
1, 2, Whoop Whoop!
3:19 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[and i swear]
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you.
Too late, I'm sure. And lonely.
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby.
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now, you'd never be the same
I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us'. Not 'you' and 'me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
I can't forget you,
I know you want me to want you...
I want to.
________________________________________________
I got another finger cut from the metal pans at work,
my friend helped me plaster it up and stuff.
I am usually fidgety with bandages and plasters, but I decided not to mess around with it.
Took it off only a whole day later, and look.
Note the cut and the plaster-mark....
I was suffocating my finger for nothing.
...Chekit chekit bitches~~~!
I wish I had more money so I could catch MUSE too... (with fucking Rise Against WTF T_T)
And chekit chekit - I buffed my nails. Shiny or what?!
Me, Shitty and Shorty got 3 identical nail buffers from Daiso cause we cool like that.
Gonna perform a short duo-set with Shitty for upcoming EE Open House at the weird little Solar house thing, beside the weird little Yellow Submarine (which I suspect is haunted by dead Beatles), which is Shorty and ZeeJay's project.
and it's on Thursday KNN, like technically tomorrow.
Please please please nobody show up please ah please!
I can't seem to remove what already is a part of me, I can't seem to want to try.
So please don't bring me down, I'm just trying not to get hurt.
2:16 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[I dreamt of]
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
waking up beside him...
and then I woke up.
2:34 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[we both have shiny happy fits of rage]
Saturday, January 02, 2010
I woke up at 5pm, and spent the next 3 hours getting in and out of bed.
Dad just got home, looked at me half-dead all over the place,
Then he said "Look at yourself. You're not cute anymore."
For a start, he's never actually said I WAS cute before. In fact, he's never said anything nice to me.
What an ass.
I don't know what to do, I am hungry but I don't feel like eating and I'm running out of Yakult in the fridge...
I couldnt even post on MLIA about how I found the fuckload of Yakults cause my computer hanged that night.
Eh fuck, I just saw the words on the can, it's Vitagen, not Yakult... HAIYAH!
I finally finished watching "You're Beautiful", and on my way to finishing "Coffee Prince" although it's an old show... Aaaah, I hate it when I come to the end of a drama series, it throws me off balance, and then I just feel lost and not know what to do.
This lost and empty feeling is as scary as it gets....
.....I should start getting hooked on DotA and WoW again...... either that, or I could just finish drinking all the Vitagens that's left, and then go buy more. Yeah, that would work.
8:10 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[On the first day of 2010]
Friday, January 01, 2010
I wish I could bubble wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken girl who's finally realized,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Do you think you are to cry...
This is goodbye.
I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cause living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends.
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed...
It could have been sunrise and hugs and kisses.
But now it's just a broken heart and salty pillows.
Perhaps it's for the best for all... So, here's to a new start.
Gotta get my ass to work soon, not my idea to be working on the first night of the year...
But there's double pay :) and plus, I need something to keep occupying me, and better yet still, I work in an icecream shop, so that's gonna help with the emotional binging.
...Hah.
4:05 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[On the last day of 2009]
Thursday, December 31, 2009
It's 6 in the morning now, I'm dead sleepy, but I really dont care...
I'm gonna say all I have to say, I don't want to cry myself to sleep tonight.
No, I'm not stable, I barely recognize myself in the mirror.
I had my hair snipped, supposedly my 'hair for the new year', but it still looks the same... my Leo mane.
Usually people cut their hair or change into a different style at the end of something, to mark that they've emotionally overcome the bad things of the past and am moving on.
But bad things don't just go away or change just because you cut your hair though... I wish it worked that way.
And if this ends up like the previous countless posts and messages and talks we had, or I had while you pretended to listen, not getting through to you, or bringing a real change for the better, this time...I swear I'm not going to make it, I thought I was stronger than this, thought I could just tolerate and get past things day by day...But I'm not, and I can't.
Cause all I can say is it's so pathetic... So pathetic how all I can do is to cry out loud that "It's unfair", "It's wrong", "It hurts".
...and more pathetic how nothing changes or becomes better.
Everything I was told to believe are lies, and everything I was shown before is a facade and I feel like I've fallen deep into a trap...
and I'm too afraid to see how I've stopped putting up a fight and started growing comfortable just being stuck in it... I'm afraid how I'm too afraid to know what it feels like to climb back out, that I never want to try...
...........But it gets so lonely down here.
I fell in. No, jumped right in... When you begged me to be in there with you, cause you said you had no one else, and that I have to make you my everything too,
"Leave your friends, leave your world, they are not important, all that should matter to you now is me, cause that's how it is to me, friends dont matter, family doesnt matter, just you."... your constant crazy talk.
But I did... all I wanted to do was to change you, save you, fix you... and for that I'd forsaken everything and everyone that ever mattered to me for the past few most important years old my life... And yet, somehow, there's no one else here now but me... And then I look up, to see you're in the above world, going on with life as you want... And you look back into this hole you've dug to talk to me, and throw me bits of food.
And I'll smile and laugh when I see you... but there is this aching sense of bitterness crashing in at the back of my head every time I see you smile, every time I see you how you lied about how no one else is important to you, how you pretend to value the very friendship you told me was worthless... or maybe you just changed your mind...
And I have every right to pull you back down with me, but I can't cause I don't really want to, I don't want to put you through the exact same things you put me through...
And then, I can't stop wondering... "Why am I still down here on my own? Why isn't he pulling me back up?"
...It gets so frustrating it drives me crazy, cause you're not coming back down this hole you dug for us, and yet even when I try to climb one step out of this miserable trench, you kick me back down...
And I can't even understand this anymore, how could anyone be so unkind, so selfish, and do it all in the name of Love... is it that you really can't see how its killing me inside or is it that you don't really care cause it's not your emotions and you're getting life the way you want it...
I feel like an animal, caged up and locked away... Removed, from where I came from.
I only talk to my keeper and the people my keeper allows me to see, his own world, very much intact... And when I see them, we put on a circus act, I purr and roll around, wag my tail and act like this is the happiest I could ever be, just so my keeper'd look good, and then he'd pat my head and brush my mane infront of everyone to see... but when the show is over, the keeper's warmth fades away...gone, in place of it is a whip that only I can see... This whole act, makes me feel so twisted, like I'm crazy and am only imagining it... Then I start to wonder if its worth it at all - having been made to sacrifice far more than I ever had before, only to be treated like this...
And that's when the aching sense of bitterness comes crashing in again, especially when my keeper says,
"You have no one, everyone is MY audience, and everyone only knows you as the keeper's pet"
....and hearing that just hurts a thousand times over, because I cant help but agree too...
My keeper wasn't oblivious or ignorant of what he's done, he knew well what's become of me, now just a tamed pet, almost like he'd always planned for this... charmless, helpless... and then I can't decide which emotion is overwhelming me... Despair, anger, despair, anger, anger, bitter bitter anger that I keep all bottled up....
I love my keeper, and I want to believe he loves me too, but sometimes I just want to lash out at my keeper, attack him infront of the audience, in hope that if perhaps they see, they'll start to realize something's wrong with my keeper, and then he'll have no choice but to be change and be nice to me for real... it's a sad thought, so desperate... so pathetic.
I am trying to use as much metaphor as I possibly could, cause I know just how much it'd kill you to let your audience, find out what kind of a person you are, and the things you do... But trying to hide all these things, not because you want to improve but because you want to continue being being that way... is just sick.
Yes this is the bitter ugly side of me ripping out, the monster you built.
You are always worried that people are talking bad about you, and always afraid of being judged... such a child. And then I'd want to protect you.... But then you'd turn into a nightmare and I just want to run away when it happens.
I know you're trying to change, but the only changes are that you'd bent and broken your own rules for yourself, the only changes are that you've somewhat secretly built a normal life for yourself, while I'm still restricted from everything...
You have to stop this unfair madness, this bitter angry feeling will swallow me whole, it's the last day of 2009 now, I can't let 2010 be this way too...
I beg you please, no more procrastination, no more meaningless apologies... Release me from all the selfish promises you took and never kept...
I've waited and waited for your words to come true, it's been so many months and I have nothing left but the hopes of that, I think this is longest I can hold off now.
I'd gave in and forgiven you all this time though I know you're doing this only because I want you to be happy....... and I wonder, why do you not want the same for me?
I guess I'm not going to publish it, I will try again to talk it out one last time with you when I wake up, although I've given you 'one last time' way too many times.... And if you still respond the same way you've always had, getting unreasonable and angry so that I will back off and you'll continue being the way you are... Then I guess, this entry, is the last of anything I have left to say to you.
Ah guess what, it's 6pm now, and you did and say everything the way I predicted, I wonder why I even bothered trying.
You asked to end this instead of changing yourself and be...oh, I don't know, non-psycho?
So here you go, when have I ever not listened to your demands right?
Happy 2010,
my only new year wish is that you'll learn and become better, even if not for me, then someone else...
So make that your resolution, that's the least you could do for me now.
6:11 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Merry Post Xmas and Pre New Year]
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Boo to Chinese youtube -.-
And hey! Don't laugh at and make fun of my 'Special~!' boyfriend just because he's retarded.
7:37 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[all that there is]
Monday, December 28, 2009
I, me, May Mon, have fooled myself again.
All these hoping after hoping, wishing after wishing, never ever proved to be anything.
It's just me lying to myself, and you, to me.
The same story just keeps playing itself out on repeat, and I am the idiot who believed the ending would be any different each time.
I really don't want to, anymore... It's too tiring, and I hate what I see when I look at myself, at what I've let you make me become.
Stupid, naive... pathetic.
Just really pathetic.
6:56 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[fuckyeahchristmasmothercbfinalfuckinglytruethat]
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
my stupid loser, but cute, boyfriend has been stealing my jokes and lingo and pretending they are his own since we started dating!
but but but, now he think he too cool for the 'Fuckyeah' trend :(
awww....my baby's all grown up T-T
I, me, May Mon, am starting to believe in the magick of Christmas...
this nice warm fuzzy feeling like we're all falling in love all over again.
I hope it stays on forever and ever :)
merry christmas, baby.
the only thing on my wishlist, maybe.
you would come back home to me,
and we could walk the streets
and they could hear us sing.
merry christmas, darling.
look at us, you can watch us fall in love again,
'cause it's the season
for us to be together, us to be together again.
together again.
Oh, me, Kev and Steve chapalang-ishly recorded an acoustic cover of Last Christmas,
wanna post on blog, but I gotzz no ideazz on how to post a Facebook video here =/
I'm working on Xmas morning, damn wtfbbqz, but but but... got double pay! Weeee~
I wonder if I could ever be financially independent... the thought alone is so scary!
I need to visit optician and dentist like really really soon, I keep dragging it, and Mommy getting fed up with me.
It's no secret - I am fucking scared of going to the dentist... I think it's cause of the dentist lady back in my Primary school, I dreaded having to go and see her so much that I am mentally scarred for life.
I wonder what will we be doing for Christmas and its Eve, hopefully we'll be spending it with lotsa people, Kev's friends and stuff, and also have quality alone mushy time together :D...
and I hope I hope I hope hope hope I get to spend some time with my clique too, been ages since I last saw them... and the 'situation' seems to have to improved quite a bit now, so I'll keep my fingers crossed and see how it goes!
Well, I made a typo and sold my soul to Santa, instead of Satan.
So Santa, you gotta help me out this year, use your mojo, old man... All I want this Christmas is a bagful of happiness.
Please lah, please please pleaseeeee.
Oh yeah, this is as pro-christianity as it gets for me... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERRRYBODY!
1:29 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Got Thread?]
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Oh hai people~~~~!
Quick and easy ok? ....OK!!!.
Been super long since I last did this but err...
(click it if you're a man......or woman, whatever, not tryna be sexist here)
Threadless has this every-tee 10USD sale, and it ends tomorrow.
As always like everything else in my life, I made up my mind last minute.
So ALL order has to be by tonight, email me.
mitty_may@hotmail.com
Payment to be in by latest noon the next day.
To make things idiot-proof so that you dont have to bother doing calculation.
It's SGD$18.50 per shirt, one time payment.
That's aga-rithm about exchange rate of 1.45 and shipping of SGD$4.00 per shirt.
Even my baby nephew can to this math lah hor.
Send me your orders, ask your friends.
Ok, Bye.
4:36 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[wo xi huan]
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I like pretending to the movie I just watched.
One moment, I am a crazy child of Satan, and the next I'm a vampire, and before too soon, I am some weird blue creature from another planet.
I like making noises loudly when I know I cant be heard.
I growl, I scream, I battle-cry, I speak another tongue that I just imagined up, I like imitating the sound of Kevin's bike engine.
I like clothes. I like looking at them til 4 or 5 into the morning, I like mixing and matching whatever I have, I like snipping and cutting off whatever I have, I like to think that I have the ability to sew my own designs and colour them in all my favourite colours.
I like dressing up people I love, like playing dollhouse, except I was afraid of dolls so I missed out.
I like music, it brings me a high I can't put into words, and a low I can only cry about. Sometimes I like to think I could create music, but I am nothing but a vocal cord and a few basic guitar chords.
I like hugs and kisses, sex may sell, but no matter how badass I wanna look and talk, it's still the warm and fuzzy feeling from X and O's that I wanna feel at the end of the day, the kind that sends you to sleep smiling to yourself.
I like food, I like knowing that I'm spending money on good food, though I keep eating the same thing everytime. I love Mom's cooking, she is still the best chef in the whole world to me, I wish I could cook too, but all I can do is 'milk-prawns' that Messiah taught us years ago.
I like being funny, I like making myself laugh, I like making people laugh, I like being around funny people, then we could laugh ourselves silly til our tummies turn rock-hard.
I like sunny days, I like watching the patterns that trees and leaves form against the skies on sunny days. I like to sleep in a really really cold place while wrapped up til I'm really warm. I like to shower with really hot water, like really hot.
I like............. aiya lazy already.
rainbows
unicorns
rock bands
fairytales
.................you.
5:21 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[scars]
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Cause you channelled all your pain.
And I can't help you fix yourself.
You're making me insane.
All I can say is.
I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
And my weakness is.
That I care too much.
And our scars remind us.
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.
7:21 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[AKFG]
Monday, November 09, 2009
Rewrite.
Wanting to spit out the jarred thoughts
Because there's no other proof of my existence
My future that I should've grabbed hold is
Conflicting between "dignity" and "freedom"
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage
Because I'll see my limit over there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year's calendar
Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being
Revive
Rewrite
Even meaningless imagination is the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
After cutting my feelings that grew, I cry
After realizing that after all, I'm just a mediocrity, I cry.
12:44 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[more than words and bills]
Sunday, November 08, 2009
I owe updates of many many moons, but ...this kinda thing, it shouldn't feel like homework, should it.
This is one of the rare forms of escape we have, and if we were to set schedule or deadlines, it's kinda screwed up, no?
Okay, so I will what I want to, when I want to, however I want to... And if anyone is to have a problem with that, then you might as well be blogging for me!
...But first, you'll have to become Burmese.
A few days ago, my left eyed swelled up with a horrible infection (otherwise known as a pimple)
and became half the size of my right eye (otherwise known as 'KevSize' - this is going to become a standard scientific/medical term of measurement to describe fatally tiny eyes, in the future).
Hurt like knnbccb when I woke up, with all the pus discharge all dried up on my eye lids gluing itself shut... Yes yes, picture me winking and squirting acidic pus out of my eye each time. It's a nice thought, little Dinesh would agree.
On the 28th of October, I got my pay, of like 500bucks, and then 5 days later, it was all gone :(
I dont even remember exactly why and on what.
This is sad. Very sad.
And it gets worse....Well, I've been playing this dumbfuck M1 trivia game that I kinda got addicted to right, and now my phone bill is 600 bucks. Hallelujah.
(WTFKINGFUCK LAH MAY MYAT MON)
No, I haven't told my Mom, that's why I'm still alive. This might be my last blog post.
I'll trying whoring my boyfriend, but it'll probably land me in a debt instead...
Joke joke!
Halloween was fun, only the part where I dressed my boyfriend up as a pink Disney princess-like drag that is, and then he turned into a bitch and ate up everyone around him like Megan Fox did in Jennifer's Body...But it's okay, cause he's been a cute boy lately.
I think the fact he's got his bike license contributed alot to that. Yup, now he's a sexy and wild biker boy, feel his manlyness and hear it.
*Kevin giggles like a tickle-me-elmo toy in the background*
We really need to get this oversized head of mine a new helmet though.
Medium is 2size2small for my hardcorely ginormous brains...which is the only explanation why my head is this big - Brains, that made me spend 600bucks on a frikking trivia game.
Brains. Indeed. =/
Probably gotta wait til I get my next pay to buy it? Imma get hotpink/purple helmet if its possible, cause I'm all girly and sweet like that. Yeah.
And hopefully I'll make enough to go on a shopping spree? Or at least an online shopping spree goodness sake...I am slowly dying inside from lack of retail therapy.
Mother says I have to clear my wardrobe before I buy anything new. My wardrobe's 'door' broke like 2 weeks ago, and my parents refuse to get it fixed.
Apparently so that I'll have to stare at the mess it is in until I do something about it.
But tired lah darling. Very hard being a teenager you know? It's not that easy being a complete useless bum at home.
My boyfriend's birthday is coming up in like 4 days. I have to rob someone.
I wanna upload pictures and videos of...stuff.
But I got to go soon, because I am already (fashionably) late, so....oh well.
Ah, I wanna talk about this really random thing though, about how funny redundancy is.
Well, you know, I like reading the info on shampoo bottles and stuff.
And there was this one shampoo that stated the same old warning about getting the product into your eyes,
It said, "Rinse quickly with clean water".
Oh really ah? CLEAN water ah? Lucky they wrote clearly sia, I nearly wanted to put my face into the toilet bowl and flush it off.
Then the other day, my boyfriend was trying to dirty talk me randomly (with his nasal chinky voice and all HAHAHAHHAHA! ....Oi! stop laughing and making fun of him, bad people!) while we were walking around some mall.
And he was doing fine, then he got to
"I'm going to finger you.... with my finger."
He said the last 3 words like as though that was the climax to the whole sentence, like a twist in a story plot, complete with the whole air of suspense thing.
So then I just burst out laughing, I tried not to, but buay tahan, damn stupid.
It's like watching a badass killer movie, where the bad guy points the gun at his victim and say,
"I am going to KILL you!.... and you...*suspense*....are going to die!"
If I were the victim, I'd die laughing at the badguy before he can even shoot me.
This is the part where you judge us like we are 12 years old kids who are sposed to talk about holding hands only... Cause damn fun right? Amazing how the fingers can lock together... Wooooh~ :o
Me, Shitty and Wani were smoking and talking about stuff, and then I said something 'not-so-intelligent'.
Wani : ...I....am....dumbfounded
Shitty : Well, I was found dumb. You tell me which is worse?
Ah, it's good to back in school with them :D
Ok, bye.
1:09 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[1, 2, 3, 4]
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
tell me that you love me more
5, 6, 7, 8
then you go home and mastur....
Happy 8th month Liew Wei Jie :D
It's been roughly the mark of a year that we've known each other...
and boy, has that year been a rollercoaster or what! :)
But at the end of the day, I'm happy you're by my side babe...
And I know everything will work out just fine,
and I am willing to place my heart and soul into believing once more you will definitely change for the better.
No cosmic feelings or whatever, but it's still real,
and hope is a wonderful thing, thank you for giving me a chance to feel that again...
Please dont let me down again :)
I bloody love you!
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I will take the long road
But it leads right back to you
If only you'll do the same
I will still stand for you
But it feels so right
I want it tonight
You feel so right
Oh I will wait to love you
I will wait another day
For you I'll leave all this behind
I will wait for you tonight
I will waste another dream on you
Always run to you
1:35 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[RAASENGAN!]
Friday, October 09, 2009
I found something else to watch to kill time........Naruto Shippuuden!
Think it'll last even after school reopens!.
Then I'll probably move on to Bleach from there =/
Who're you calling dorky?! ...TMD.
Dont mind the dumbass "toughter" =.=.... it's a real nice opening song.
One more week left till school reopens...
Just saw my timetable... as if to make up for giving me the shittiest possible timetable last semester, the crazy 4 to 5 hours long breaks and all, this coming semester's pretty sweet...for me at least.
Anyways, I'm starting to hate my job... KNN, need to go get some weird jab to work in F&B.
But I need the money, gotta get my mother a 3 dimensional Buddha for her birthday ...how cool is that!
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I had/have friends. Real friends. Good friends. Friends who will still be there for me in end. Friends I don't even deserve anymore.
So thank you guys, for just being there for me although I'm never around.
And I know this isn't the coolest nicknames around, (cause I save the cool ones like "Aernidius" for myself eh?), and I was probably constipated or something when I thought of it back then.
But I fucking miss you guys....Lidiots.
HAHAHA....fuck.
12:56 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[can we fast forward?]
Friday, October 02, 2009
Jennifer's Body soundtrack... not mad about Megan Fox, but yeah, she's hot, and she's a maneater...siol!
They should really use Man-eater to promote the movie instead =/
I just lost my iPod and my spectacles in my own home... motherCB.
I think my room is like getting sucked into another dimension, that could be the only possible explanation.
Still waiting to get my first pay... eggcited.
I think Cheetahs are lame, but very fast...oh the irony. Get it get it?
Ha ha. I am soooo funny. Ha ha.
Lions for the win.
Meeeow~!
Celebrated birthdays... waiting for school to reopen.
Damn eggcited x 2... Last half year left in school... and let's keep it that way :)
It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'Cause seeing clear would be the bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here.
9:29 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[have you ever seen the light?]
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
don't you wonder where i hide?
i will live...and i will die.
i will keep you on my mind.
we're c-h-a-i-n-e-d
4:11 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
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