[AKFG]
Monday, November 09, 2009
Rewrite.
Wanting to spit out the jarred thoughts
Because there's no other proof of my existence
My future that I should've grabbed hold is
Conflicting between "dignity" and "freedom"
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage
Because I'll see my limit over there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year's calendar
Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being
Revive
Rewrite
Even meaningless imagination is the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
After cutting my feelings that grew, I cry
After realizing that after all, I'm just a mediocrity, I cry.
12:44 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[more than words and bills]
Sunday, November 08, 2009
I owe updates of many many moons, but ...this kinda thing, it shouldn't feel like homework, should it.
This is one of the rare forms of escape we have, and if we were to set schedule or deadlines, it's kinda screwed up, no?
Okay, so I will what I want to, when I want to, however I want to... And if anyone is to have a problem with that, then you might as well be blogging for me!
...But first, you'll have to become Burmese.
A few days ago, my left eyed swelled up with a horrible infection (otherwise known as a pimple)
and became half the size of my right eye (otherwise known as 'KevSize' - this is going to become a standard scientific/medical term of measurement to describe fatally tiny eyes, in the future).
Hurt like knnbccb when I woke up, with all the pus discharge all dried up on my eye lids gluing itself shut... Yes yes, picture me winking and squirting acidic pus out of my eye each time. It's a nice thought, little Dinesh would agree.
On the 28th of October, I got my pay, of like 500bucks, and then 5 days later, it was all gone :(
I dont even remember exactly why and on what.
This is sad. Very sad.
And it gets worse....Well, I've been playing this dumbfuck M1 trivia game that I kinda got addicted to right, and now my phone bill is 600 bucks. Hallelujah.
(WTFKINGFUCK LAH MAY MYAT MON)
No, I haven't told my Mom, that's why I'm still alive. This might be my last blog post.
I'll trying whoring my boyfriend, but it'll probably land me in a debt instead...
Joke joke!
Halloween was fun, only the part where I dressed my boyfriend up as a pink Disney princess-like drag that is, and then he turned into a bitch and ate up everyone around him like Megan Fox did in Jennifer's Body...But it's okay, cause he's been a cute boy lately.
I think the fact he's got his bike license contributed alot to that. Yup, now he's a sexy and wild biker boy, feel his manlyness and hear it.
*Kevin giggles like a tickle-me-elmo toy in the background*
We really need to get this oversized head of mine a new helmet though.
Medium is 2size2small for my hardcorely ginormous brains...which is the only explanation why my head is this big - Brains, that made me spend 600bucks on a frikking trivia game.
Brains. Indeed. =/
Probably gotta wait til I get my next pay to buy it? Imma get hotpink/purple helmet if its possible, cause I'm all girly and sweet like that. Yeah.
And hopefully I'll make enough to go on a shopping spree? Or at least an online shopping spree goodness sake...I am slowly dying inside from lack of retail therapy.
Mother says I have to clear my wardrobe before I buy anything new. My wardrobe's 'door' broke like 2 weeks ago, and my parents refuse to get it fixed.
Apparently so that I'll have to stare at the mess it is in until I do something about it.
But tired lah darling. Very hard being a teenager you know? It's not that easy being a complete useless bum at home.
My boyfriend's birthday is coming up in like 4 days. I have to rob someone.
I wanna upload pictures and videos of...stuff.
But I got to go soon, because I am already (fashionably) late, so....oh well.
Ah, I wanna talk about this really random thing though, about how funny redundancy is.
Well, you know, I like reading the info on shampoo bottles and stuff.
And there was this one shampoo that stated the same old warning about getting the product into your eyes,
It said, "Rinse quickly with clean water".
Oh really ah? CLEAN water ah? Lucky they wrote clearly sia, I nearly wanted to put my face into the toilet bowl and flush it off.
Then the other day, my boyfriend was trying to dirty talk me randomly (with his nasal chinky voice and all HAHAHAHHAHA! ....Oi! stop laughing and making fun of him, bad people!) while we were walking around some mall.
And he was doing fine, then he got to
"I'm going to finger you.... with my finger."
He said the last 3 words like as though that was the climax to the whole sentence, like a twist in a story plot, complete with the whole air of suspense thing.
So then I just burst out laughing, I tried not to, but buay tahan, damn stupid.
It's like watching a badass killer movie, where the bad guy points the gun at his victim and say,
"I am going to KILL you!.... and you...*suspense*....are going to die!"
If I were the victim, I'd die laughing at the badguy before he can even shoot me.
This is the part where you judge us like we are 12 years old kids who are sposed to talk about holding hands only... Cause damn fun right? Amazing how the fingers can lock together... Wooooh~ :o
Me, Shitty and Wani were smoking and talking about stuff, and then I said something 'not-so-intelligent'.
Wani : ...I....am....dumbfounded
Shitty : Well, I was found dumb. You tell me which is worse?
Ah, it's good to back in school with them :D
Ok, bye.
1:09 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[1, 2, 3, 4]
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
tell me that you love me more
5, 6, 7, 8
then you go home and mastur....
Happy 8th month Liew Wei Jie :D
It's been roughly the mark of a year that we've known each other...
and boy, has that year been a rollercoaster or what! :)
But at the end of the day, I'm happy you're by my side babe...
And I know everything will work out just fine,
and I am willing to place my heart and soul into believing once more you will definitely change for the better.
No cosmic feelings or whatever, but it's still real,
and hope is a wonderful thing, thank you for giving me a chance to feel that again...
Please dont let me down again :)
I bloody love you!
__________________________________________________________________________________________
I will take the long road
But it leads right back to you
If only you'll do the same
I will still stand for you
But it feels so right
I want it tonight
You feel so right
Oh I will wait to love you
I will wait another day
For you I'll leave all this behind
I will wait for you tonight
I will waste another dream on you
Always run to you
1:35 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[RAASENGAN!]
Friday, October 09, 2009
I found something else to watch to kill time........Naruto Shippuuden!
Think it'll last even after school reopens!.
Then I'll probably move on to Bleach from there =/
Who're you calling dorky?! ...TMD.
Dont mind the dumbass "toughter" =.=.... it's a real nice opening song.
One more week left till school reopens...
Just saw my timetable... as if to make up for giving me the shittiest possible timetable last semester, the crazy 4 to 5 hours long breaks and all, this coming semester's pretty sweet...for me at least.
Anyways, I'm starting to hate my job... KNN, need to go get some weird jab to work in F&B.
But I need the money, gotta get my mother a 3 dimensional Buddha for her birthday ...how cool is that!
__________________________________________________________
I had/have friends. Real friends. Good friends. Friends who will still be there for me in end. Friends I don't even deserve anymore.
So thank you guys, for just being there for me although I'm never around.
And I know this isn't the coolest nicknames around, (cause I save the cool ones like "Aernidius" for myself eh?), and I was probably constipated or something when I thought of it back then.
But I fucking miss you guys....Lidiots.
HAHAHA....fuck.
12:56 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[can we fast forward?]
Friday, October 02, 2009
Jennifer's Body soundtrack... not mad about Megan Fox, but yeah, she's hot, and she's a maneater...siol!
They should really use Man-eater to promote the movie instead =/
I just lost my iPod and my spectacles in my own home... motherCB.
I think my room is like getting sucked into another dimension, that could be the only possible explanation.
Still waiting to get my first pay... eggcited.
I think Cheetahs are lame, but very fast...oh the irony. Get it get it?
Ha ha. I am soooo funny. Ha ha.
Lions for the win.
Meeeow~!
Celebrated birthdays... waiting for school to reopen.
Damn eggcited x 2... Last half year left in school... and let's keep it that way :)
It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'Cause seeing clear would be the bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here.
9:29 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[have you ever seen the light?]
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
don't you wonder where i hide?
i will live...and i will die.
i will keep you on my mind.
we're c-h-a-i-n-e-d
4:11 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[where is my mind?]
Saturday, September 19, 2009
My bed's a mess,
...And so is my head.
Been surviving days without a phone now, I almost feel like I could live without it.
My parents put any plans for me to get a car, or perhaps a van, on hold first, cause Mom's financially stressed out with her shop... I don't really mind, but I've been constantly getting a force of external pressure...
And dammmm, I hate it, cause I can't do anything about either side, it doesn't exactly feel nice to be crushed in the middle.
Oh I got my results, passed both the repeat modules, and failed Stage Lighting...
So I guess I should be enjoying my holidays with a bit of guilt. A bit only..... but Nah.
Can't say I didn't have this coming... Hahaha, me and Choowee even planned it out, repeating Stage Lighting would be our tactic to not have crazy 5 hours of break of semester!... So warped =.=
But yeah, whatever works, no point brooding over what's been done.
See you next semester, classmates! :DDD
1:16 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[master of puppet]
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I know what I want, and I know what I am supposed to do.
But I could never ever do anything for myself.
And when I think about it, I feel so tricked and played a fool with... and it makes me so angry, so angry I want to disappear from it all.
But this is as far as my life goes for now... in someone else's hands.
And oh yeah, I just lost my phone in the cinema last night.... Great.
Just great.
1:02 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[HAIYAH~]
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I feel very lazy, like a motherfucker.
Nothing to update when my life is as interesting as watching dust collect into a dust-bunny.
Don't ask me why it's called a dust-bunny, I don't know why,
it could have been dust-kitty but no, it's a bunny, so let's deal with it.
Sidetrack, sidetrack... bad case of A.D.D, like a motherfucker.
Where did I stop, where should I begin?
First thing first.......... I finished watching One Piece up to date at episode 416 :(
Now I have nothing to do, like a motherfucker...
So I just started watching yet another Taiwanese drama with Ethan Ruan acting in it... he is sooooo bloody cute/hot.
I want to da bao him home, seriously, I don't mind if he's all chopped up and wrapped in packets, I'll just glue his dead body back and hang him up on my wall and admire him as he slowly, but gloriously, rots away, like a motherfucker.
Yeah, that about sums everything that happened in my life.
I kid, I kid.
.....I became a full fledged qualified driver on 09/09/09! WOOTS!
Passed the test on first try, how cool does that make me huh? Damn cool, like a motherfucker.
(Okay, I should really stop writing that behind every sentence -.-
It's kinda addictive actually, Argh damn you cracked.com!)
Anyways, can't wait to get my own car.... Vroomvroombopbeepbeep!
Been working like 3 days a week every week now, and besides that, lots of movies, some 3D, some late night hangouts, some dinners, some lunches.
And today night, or technically yesterday, I just went skating with K.Liew and his friends Marcus and Sonia... Me and Kev skateboarded while the other 2 were on rollers.
Been so freaking long that I actually got to be on a board, it was really fun again once I got used to it... but after awhile, my retarded left ankle just started hurting again. I guess it's not completely healed... And Kev was like doing mini-tricks, I want to punch him.
Stupid show-off! Hmph! :X
I'm too lazy to put up pictures now, and really sleepy too... I'm gonna watch Ethan Ruan until I fall asleep.
Here's a picture of me holding a picture of you though :)
I love you, like a motherfucker.
....shut up lah May.
3:11 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[how do i feel, what do i say]
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
in the end, it all goes away
I am 12 hours away from Stage Lighting paper.
Stuffing words and numbers into my head, but I don't think it's working.
I'm probably gonna fail it, but I can't help feeling like it's okay to, so maybe that's why it's not working.
It's ATE paper on Thursday that's scaring me...
And Kev asked me 'Why never update blog?' - so here I am.
So well, I have a job now at Udders at Lor Kilat, where it used to be Alvron jamming studio.
I've worked 4 days there already, and I actually really like my job...for once.
It's fun and almost everyone is almost always friendly.
Rochelle's friend, Ursula (the octopus woman in The Little Mermaid, y'know? Hahaha!), joined like 2 days right after I did, so it's an awesome coincidence.
I went for company dinner just one day right after I joined, Ursula went for dinner even BEFORE she started work - POWER!
I just got to work on getting the scoops into a rounded ball shape, and remind myself to never ever ever touch the shop's iPod remote again! Itchy fingers! Bad fingers! Baaad!
I also gave like a whole list of song suggestions to David, our boss, so hopefully he accepts all, and you'll start hearing Mama Mia and Grease soundtracks at all 3 Udders outlets.
MUAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHA - then I'll be doing those cheesy dance moves that Kev finds oh-so-embarrassing :DDDD
I noted Ticket Outta Loserville by Son of Dork too, :D cause it's his fave song... I think.
Today, Shitty accompanied me to study at Marina Square, while Kev was with his friends at Millenia Walk.
CB Choowee, Ivan and Shariff last minute died on me.
I think both our sessions weren't really effective -.-
Kev and the kids were watching movie alamak, and I, watched Tecktonik dance videos with Shitty, and rediscovered love for System of a Down and Mindless Self Indulgence.
I have pictures and stuff to share, but they're on Facebook now, I'll do it in another post cause I think I'm just gonna let myself fall asleep now.
I am feeling quite stressed, it doesn't really show, but I feel it, I've never been good with it, but luck always got me through my major exams in the past... I'm just glad I'm not snipping off my hair or something.
Well, I snipped off my home shorts though, and made a hairband out of it =/
...when MSI is on repeat for the 10th time.
A blister I tried to suppress with a plaster from 3 weeks ago is suddenly hollow and open now, but it's hard and it doesn't even sting, cause the fluid's emptied.
I think it's a good thing. New skin will grow out and replace it, but my healing cells are so slow. I should cut down on sweet.
Somhow I feel like my blister, hahaha. Weird weird sick and empty feeling.
It's probably last minute pre-exams blues, or the fact that Ghost month just started when I had thought that it just ended.
I'm on a constant mental crash, but it doesn't feel like much anymore.
Nothing does.
Except the urge of sleep, maybe I just need sleep.
Sleep always makes everything okay.
I think I'm gonna tear the blister away, hope I don't get infected! :X
Time to Z now :)
In a minute, minute, in a fucken minute.
1:48 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[hello? is anybody in there?]
Friday, August 21, 2009
There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what you're sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.
2:03 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[and i will try...]
Sunday, August 16, 2009
again...
fuck
and again....
it fucking hurts...
til i can try no more.
FUCK!
...it's your turn to fix me now.
5:44 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[iknowiknowiknow]
Friday, August 14, 2009
It's Friday...
I'm (still) in love.
Happy 1/2 Year.
Said you'd call, but I guess you're not gonna...
So, goodnight :)
12:40 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Stick your hands inside of my pocket]
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
I have super glue on my fingers from trying to mend a pair of old flats that I really liked alot =.= Nothing beats a pair of seasoned-ness on your feet.
I nearly got my hands stuck to the shoes or the gluestick itself a number of times, but I think I can be cobbler now already... :D
Yeah, like it's that easy to be one waad =.=
I just took my PCN semester quiz today, tried to study but ended up cramming everything Ivan and Shariff taught me last minute.
Embarrassing, I know, I have to rely on little kids to pass, though I'm taking it for the second time.
Choowee didnt have school today, hope she didn't screw up.
We're in this together soldier! >=o (fyi : victory-cry face)
Left with project to present for PCN on Friday, and that's it, it's judgement time.
Haiyah!
Stupid kids showed me stupid show of this white man learning to speak Chinese cause there was a problem with his Chinese takeaway order, now I cant stop saying 'Haiyah!' =.=
PETE ZAI NA-ER?!
Haiyah!
I took my Auto lesson yesterday, it was pretty ghey... But after awhile it was okay uh.
Moving off and everything so convenient, no need use my poor fractured left foot to press the bloody clutch also.
I don't know if it was that one lesson with Auto that messed up all my fundamentals, I just couldn't concentrate doing Manual today...
I made alot of silly simple errors for things which usually comes to me normally by now, like signalling, checking blindspots and or clutching in when stopping.
I guess I just kept thinking about........ :(
...Argh.
It'd be a miracle if I even passed a single route today... But well, I believe in miracles :)
Had dinner with TS and CS last night... damn long never see Choonsoon before that sia,
Motherfuckerrrrrr~ missed my birthday to go out with some girl whom he refuse to tell us the name of.
Bet he's just going out with his
But my birthday didn't mean anything much in the first place, I haven't gotten any dedication posts, or just perhaps a single one that would've mattered most to me, nor any pictures to remember it by.....
Being 19 already sucks :(
Sorry I'm being so Simple Plan nowadays, I seriously need to get myself back!...
I'll start off by putting Backstreet Boys on repeat.
Dont judge me >=o (fyi : angry face)
Had dinner with them again tonight near Westmall, Gay was at Macz but he was rushing his work and dieting so it was just the 3 of us on dinner and the boys' iPod Touch's Tap-Tap Game -.-
They both got the same iPod, same shoes and same shit lah... then Cb always fighting about who got it first alamak.
Speaking of iPod, I bought a 2nd-hand almost-new pink nano from TS' friend at less than half the price, woots!
Overkill of color saturation f.t.w.~!
Teresa sold me back what she ordered from F21 through me, cause it's too big for her.
Gave me One doughlah discount, thanks ah woman =.=
Just nice my nail colors happen to match the top! Heh.
I wanted to find Carol at town to buy something, but cause of Motherfuckerrrr~ who wants to cut his hair and go home wash armpit for presentation tomorrow, I couldn't........ I kid I kid :D
and Westmall wasn't exactly the best place to buy presents either...
HAIYAH!
Tomorrow's gonna be a beezee day! Squeeze in PCN project during break time, go for job interview at UDDERS in the evening,
(they called just when I on-ed my phone to check voicemails, good timing or what!)
then meet the 2 Motherfuckerrrrrs~ go town buy stuff.
Got photography pieces back from Kim Lau...
Doesn't really fit on my wall with my glow-in-the-dark stars though.
'And that makes you larger than life!'
>=o
(fyi : singing-backstreetboys-song face)
11:55 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[test]
yi orh shan shi
11:32 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[tell the sun to start moving again]
I feel weirded out. =/
Goh Sheng Yao was my primary school classmate, some chubby idiotic kid who kept copying my homework.
And I just found out I knew the girl, Clara, too... I just dint remember that was her name, until I stalked her picture out with Google... and I remembered she was like this happy chirpy girl and she nicknamed me 'Mummy' last time =/
It's kinda weird that two people you met in your life at different points of time, suddenly dies together, in this manner.
And they were like happy people, so I hope it wasn't suicide :(
Is this what growing up is about?
Watching people around you die slowly, fearing each time that death will catch up to someone more closer each time.
I don't like people dying :(
Rest in Peace...
or float around the railway tracks like 2 happy spirits in love forever or something... it feels better to think of it this way.
10:44 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[my birthday wish]
Monday, August 10, 2009
is never gonna come true...
I wanted to feel mad-happy about my birthday, I tried to look at all the things to be happy about.
But now all I want to do is disappear from this world.
I cannot take this anymore, it is so cruel to have my hopes and dreams shattered over and over again.
So thank you everyone for everything, but just leave me alone.
Won't be using my phone for some time,
I have to focus on being able to stay in school, for the sake of Mom who's the only one who truly cares about me and my happiness.
..... :(
6:28 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[laminate your mind]
Friday, August 07, 2009
And so, as I transit into the last year of age where I'm still a 'teen'
(cause after that, you just become a 'ty' - pronounce : teen without the n,
yeah it just makes me feel so old already, like ZiJing, except she'll take a step further and become 'antique' by then.)
I went prawning on a late Friday night with Love, Love's tiny friend Dinesh (who so totally looks like King o' Pop before he turned white and got a freaky nose, even sounds the same),
and Love's long lost twin brother Kenneth (which is just confusing, Piglet's mother has quite the explanation to give),
and also this other random dude whom I'll just call XiaoMing (like I did for every guy character I came up with for all my chinese compo all the way til O levels - dont act like you're not guilty of it too!)
cause the chance he sees my blog is square root of Pi percent.
Don't get a calculator, it's 1.77%
But you're still gonna do it cause you don't believe me...fine.
Further back, on a Wednesday, I borrowed a book.
Yes, the kind with words and more words.
I got to the 10th page then gave up and returned... Banzai!
Class was held at some weird place, 80-3-3 to be exact, almost like a myth...
Took me and Choowee 15 minutes circling the area to find the damned place, fucken eh!
But we reached first the the rest of the class took quite some time to reach, so it's the place, not us!
Followed by Thursday (like you didnt know thursday comes after wednesday like that),
Love and I went LOT1 to get our (real) rings.
And then laughed our asses off watching The Hangover... I'd like to watch it again! It's that good!
One ring... to rule them all...
Not.
Fast forward back to Saturday
(why are the dates so jumbled? - it's called freestyle, noobshit.)
I hung with Shitty while running errands for Mommy, Jessica joined us for lunch.
Met Love later at night and went drinking with his friends, was supposed go Zouk find Gay and gang together.
But last minute we didn't cause I was broke, he was broke, I wasn't dressed for it, and Love had work early next day... Just wasn't the time.
Sorry :(
Tuesday, I was super clumsy and unlucky that day.
I got off 2 stops too early for BBDC on CCK Road, cause I usually gauged where to stop by sighting the MRT track at a distance, and I mistook an overhead bridge for it =.=
I realized it was wrong just as I pressed - so why did I still press it? I dont know! My hand spasmed cause my mind panicked.
2 stops too early was the foreign workers dorm there, in the middle of nowhere at 12 noon, where hugeass ants and mozzies everywhere.
Hopped on the next bus, and the bus uncle DID NOT STOP bus for me although I like spammed the button T-T
Walked to BBDC and the instructor laughed at me when I told him what happened.
After school, headed town with Love, TS and Shitty cause the guys wanted to get armsocks (they're both taking bike lessons)
Shitty bought me a bag which I'll act surprised to receive on my birthday.
Note to self : Shitty 27th September, TS 15th November.
(Sorry luhhh, I get confused about my own birthday at times -.-
Like whether I'm 8th of 9 or 9th of 8.
I wouldn't remember Love's too if it wasn't the same number over and over again : 1111.)
Wednesday, I played basketball in school with Choowee and our a few of our classmates plus our vertically challenged lecturer Isaac.
Been damn long since I even touched one, I remembered playing overnight at the court near Choonsoon's house with TS, CS, Theodore and Jenmey... 16 just held such better days :)
Anyways, I played barefoot and now I have blisters on both feet and my arms are aching T_T
Joined the class for class steamboat at The LOFT afterwards, left with CW by 8pm.
Headed to town to find Love at Sunshine Plaza, which was tricky to find, and of all people to ask for direction, I asked a couple who were looking for their way there too -.-
Ended up with me showing them the way in the end, cause I'm nice like that :)
Love was like cutting up namecards for presentation with a cool looking machine, it looked really fun, in fact it looked like the reason why I chose D&T (before I realized D&T requires theory too), but he thought it was stupid...
But I know he secretly was having the time of his life deep down inside his little chinese heart :))
I was kpoh-ing the shop owner peeling out big sheets of sticky tape stuff, which revealed really pretty flowers shapes and spirals and yadayada...
I naively thought he freehandedly carved everything out as he peeled them -.-
But yeah, they were custom-made vinyl wallpaper... and oh so fucken cool!
He had like a whole catalogue of them!
(No, Kevin, I dont want wallpaper for my birthday -.-)
Drove to UDDERS icecream place near school afterwards.....
and we had... icecream! (bet you didnt see that coming did you!)
They had this weird flavor called Turkey-Bacon-and-Egg, which was really... well, Turkey, Bacon and Egg! (bet you didnt see that coming too)
Love prompted me to ask for a job there, it looked pretty slack and all...
And there were really lame lines on their uniforms, like 'Be a Brudder, buy me Udders'...
But I was on a lamer roll, I don't know what got into me,
but when I saw that the counter girl name was "Zara",
I said 'Where's F21?'
Sigh, and I will immediately regret the moment I say stupid things like that,
but just like the bustop incident, my mind spasms and functions logically just a split second too late... every single time =.=
Cause then I talked to the guy in charge before we left,
he said "I'll talk to the others and get back to you"
I should have just said "K, thanks! Bye :D"
But NOooo, I just had to go and say "Yeah, tell the Udders."
Fuck me.
Well, it won't be the second time I get rejected cause I'm idiotically lame at all the wrong time, (refer to post of me and Shitty filling up forms applying for Cathay cineplex and B&J last year... but there's no archive! HAHAHA -.-)
Oh yeah, I got home and found out Dad won 4D... just in time for my birthday.
YAY ME~ :DDD
Today, Friday, I'm in love, and still feeling lame.
I waited around 3 hours in school, before remembering lesson had been cancelled.
I was in the lift with this lady teacher who asked me what I was doing in class,
and I said "Waiting for time to die..... so that I don't have to kill it."
I would've blushed silly if she didnt laugh.
Then I went back in the lift again, this time Mr Loh was there, and some students.
He wanted to go to the 5th floor, and so he said "Erm, give me 5."
I immediately followed with "High 5! Hahahah"
For like 2 seconds, and I realized I was the only one laughing. Fuck.
Justin Chang, fucking come back to school soon so my idiotism will be pale in comparism to yours! CB.
And I'm about to go now, perhaps find Shitty and shop for shoes, or go home...
Then meet Love and TS after 9pm tonight, gonna head to Mount Faber.
Vroom vroom bop beep beep!
Ok gtg, tata!
12:39 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[With the sun in my eyes]
Monday, August 03, 2009
I'll smile into yours.
I think all the bad days have come to an end, I've never felt so happy in such a long time...
Like this really cosmic feeling, where I'm standing in vast space, looking down at a certain little boy who is far out of reach.
And then, as if magick, suddenly within just a second, bright shimmering colorful lights exploded out from where he stood, and as if a long time curse from green eyes was lifted, every negative energy casting darkness around us just broke and faded away......
And all my tears became glitters and turned into a unicorn, which we both rode into the stars.
Hahaha, I'm getting carried away! :))
I am not sure what's coming but I know it's something good, and it'll prove itself to have been worth it all.
Call me superstitious geek but I believe it's something, if not everything, to do with the stars.
With your birth planet in your sign, meaning your birthday is near, it's the time where everything starts to work out again.
Well, I know not everything will just work out again because I simply believe it is so, there are many people I've let down, and owe more than just apologies to. But I really hope to be given a chance to fix everything and make up for it over time =/
please forgive me you guys :(
Some people may think birthdays are overrated, sometimes even I...
But when I really think about it, no matter what a person says, we can't help but feel hopeful with expectations, because there is no one who'd like to feel unspecial or unhappy for that one day that you can claim as your own.
(Well, I have to share it with a whole nation but nevermind that lah hor.)
And if anyone tries to take that away from you! You kick their butts! :D
Well my Mom sorta spoiled this plan Kevin made to have a weekend getaway to M'sia for my birthday, but I can't kick her butt obviously...
She said this year, my Burmese birthday and English birthday dates fall on the same day, and that it rarely ever happens.
So she wanna do this whole traditional birthday thing on the morning of the actual day, and since it's really important to her, it's the least I could do by listening to her.
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I wanted to blog alot of random things, funny things that people said, and nice things/ bad things I see passerbys doing for each other, things that usually pop in my head situationally.
But I get lazy to everytime I get home, with my damn shitty connection attributing to half the reason why...
Anyways, right now I'm rushing to finish up my WISP reflection in school to print and handup.
500 words only, I don't know why I'm taking so long!
It's the last day for IS classes if I'm not wrong...
Means exams are nearing, I still haven't gotten my appeal results...
Just hope for the best, and leave the rest to fate!
YOSH!!!
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You say that you're broken
I just want to fix you
Tell me what to do,
baby I will listen
Days that go unwritten
All the things you're missing
Tell me what to do and
maybe I can fix it
Say so, you want to
Say so, you want to
Hollow, you want to
Happy as one
Still I believe you
I just wanna save you
Tell me what to do,
maybe I will listen
Run, run if you want to
And you'll find what you're after
Tell me what to do,
I'll find all the answers
Say so, you want to
Say so, you want to
Hollow, you want to
Happy as one
Don't know how long
I've wasted my time, yeah
I only want to lie with you here
I never thought that you'd be so blind, yeah
Stay if you want and we'll disappear
We'll disappear
2:07 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Once Upon A Dream]
Monday, July 27, 2009
It felt very dejavu sitting at the library listening to the super old songs they were playing, that sounded like Fairytales' soundtracks, namely Sleeping Beauty.
I probably watched the cartoon like over 20 times before when I was a kid.
Classic siol~
But if I know you, I know what you'll do. You'll love me at once, the way you did Once upon a dream.
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Updownleftrightdates
Been waiting for Kevin to send me pics in like forever and ever and ever.
So I'm just gonna whip out whatever I can now.
Me and Choowee are like hanging on a string which ties us to Ngee Ann Poly.
We sent in our appeal letter, and boy we're really taking it too easy for two Year 3s on the borderline of being dismissed.
But inside I'm scared shitless :(
I want to go back to classes with Shitty and the rest, I want to roll my eyes at everything Justin says, and I want to be nagged at by ZiJing make fun of her tiny eyes and pedophile tendencies.
My driving is roughly at Stage 4 now.
Finally out of the bloody circuit again. I effing hate vertical parking.
Vroom vroom~
I'm at like Episode 270 for One Piece now.
No life or what... I know right?
I preload episodes to watch on bus rides, train rides, class, BBDC... basically everywhere whenever I have free time.
I could almost feel people rolling their eyes at me...
BUT I DUNCH CARES! Rah rah rah.
Errr... I gained weight.
I broke a chair by just leaning back :(
And err... I DIY-ed my own 'bodyart' with highlighters during class cause I was bored.
Damn cool rights???!?!?!?!?
That's probably how my tattoo will look like when my
And oh yes, ignoring the retarded pokemonish pose - this is our rings from Couple Lab.
Or at least my half of the rings, which says "Kevin".
No prize for guessing what his says. =o
The super annoying thing is this my friends, they gave us the WRONG rings, after making us wait like 2 fucken weeks...
And said "Oh because this is a better kind of material".
WTF? Like if we order product A, we dont want product X just because "it's better", and they didnt even inform us beforehand.
But no big, we're gonna get the actual rings on thursday.
Yay us~
4:49 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[Stranger]
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Edited.
Sunday 3.34am is Saturday's night 3.34am, not bloody Monday. Dumbass :(
Argh.
If only they could see the kind of things you say to me, otherwise there is no way to understand what I have to go through everytime you do.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide.
You treat me like a queen when we go out,
wanna show everyone what our love's about.
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd,
But when no ones around;
There's no kindness in your eyes,
the way you look at me, it's just not right.
And I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..
Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in every way,
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed.
Your plan is working so you can just walk away,
Baby your secrets safe.
3:44 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[why did the kitty go to Shells?]
Saturday, July 18, 2009
...I don't know either. =/
But it's dead and flattened infront of the Shells station near school now, it's so flat I couldn't recognize it to be a cat at first.
Looked like a splat of vomit, til I looked closer and saw orange furs and claws.
Poor poor thing... no one has gone to clear it up yet :(
.....So quickly go down and have a look if you havent! It's not everyday you get to see a really pancaked cat~ :D
They say my optimism is sometimes frightful, I wonder why anyone would think that.
Hmmmm... =/
My sister just showed me an awesome cover band on youtube.
They are effing cool, and on top of that, they are Koreans.
Kimchi Power~~~~ YEH!
They're so good that I downloaded their covers from their purevolume.com.
First you gotta have a rough idea how the original song is like.
Tell Me Your Wish by SNSD (Girls Generation)
A very leggy video (as in legs, and not lag)
and a fucking riddiculously large number of members o.o
Cover by Royal Pirates,
formerly known as Fading From Dawn, until their bassist died.
But they still sound effing tight, imagine how they'd sound as a full band?
The drummer is bloody cool uh... he goes beserk outta nowhere, but it's all good. :)
So I was thinking, Koreans uh, they should sound funny speaking english rights?
(like Burmese people got berry powderful engrish rike that)
They covered Britney Spear's CIRCUS, it is awesome too but it wasn't that easy to tell.
But check out their cover of Muse's Time Is Running Out.
Fucking fucking good siol~
And apparently they've been living in South California for like 10 years already.
How did it come to this...
Ooh ooh ooo yeaayeee yeaayeee yeaaayee yea!
My boyfriend is suddenly into Korean chicks alot now too,
Kimchi POWER!
We didn't collect the rings in the end on Friday, cause babe had work and didnt plan it out right but we're going down to get them tomorrow so it's all good :)
Life IS Good!.............meow~
Jkjkjkjklolol.
(frightful optimism frightful optimism frightful optimism frightful optimism frightful optimism)
11:36 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[plant a zombie, ring a corpse]
Friday, July 17, 2009
Skyped Keke to sleep, and now my view of him is pitch dark cause his lights are off.
Gonna make a quick entry before I knock out too~
It's gonna be like a nursery book kinda illrustrated sorta post sorta thing...
I'm sorry, the words dont seem to fit right, but I've been sick for the past few days on and off (excuses.)
I just went to PALME exhibition at Suntec earlier today...
It's almost exactly the same as the one 2 years ago, except they gave free icecream this time :x
Banzai~
And I took alot of brochures and catalog books again, for goddess knows what, cause the first pile is still rotting away in my room.
Lucky no 'Ma' infront, and my junior just told me 'Mayat' (common mispronunciation of 'Myat') means corpse! WTF.
Yet another reason why I seriously need to change my name.
Keke got me a piglet in pajamas not too long ago.
Awww...check out the bunny slippers
Ero time~!
(No, I'm not that kind of person... really. -.-)
SQUIGLET!
Do I have a thing for abusing soft toys? No.
Random little cool/cute stuff! :D
lublublub.
Both me and Shitty got new acoustics from Keke too.
Kevin Banazai~!
I'm making it a point to play one song for Kev every night, not that I consider what I do as playing.
But we'll make do with it for now, not that he has a choice lah hor, just gotta act serenaded no matter what.
I gonna learn Blink 182's Fuck A Dog to play for him next, cause that's the kind of sweet girlfriend I am.
Kev just made me download this game Plant VS Zombies, but I can't get the keygen to work, and my 60min trial gameplay is over :(
Damm kayoot lah the game~
We are gonna collect our couple rings from Couple Lab later todayyyy :D
1:35 AM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[stay up til 4 in the morning]
Sunday, July 12, 2009
and the tears are pouring
and i wanna make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time
baby if we're gonna do it, come we do it right.
you gotta start loving me right in time
posted at 4.24am
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MEDIA FEED~
I am now watching Michael Jackson top 40 countdown on MTV.
Alot of the top songs I knew didnt even make it to top 10s, so I'm pretty stoked to find out what is number 1.
Although I could probably just Google it =.=
A Jonas got enagaged! Yay him~
I bet half of you wouldn't even know his name if asked to name all 3 Jonases.
Yes that's right, it's Kevin Jonas! HAHAHA
Me and Chor just laughed our asses off at this really kaaayooot old man on youtube,
we were searching for MJ and came across his renditions.
Just when I thought no one's singing could make me laugh more than Kev's.
But the funniest one we've seen yet is his cover of Avril's Skater Boy
MUST WATCH!
aaaahhhhH! the face! THE face! HAHAHAHAHAHAHH!
I'm leaving for Mom's shop now...
OMG OMG, number 1 now....
it's....Earth Song o.o
AH-AH-Aaaahh~~ Oooh-oooohh-hooo~
4:15 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
[make it right somehow]
Friday, July 10, 2009
Be strong for me, I'll be strong for you.
You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.
Late at nights when I feel alone, bury my head and tell me how much I hate me, it hurts so bad it gets hard to breathe, gasp for air to fall asleep.
I'm not okay.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
I'm in this alone, trying hard to be what I remember me to be, but I don't. I'm flipped inside out and walking backwards upside down and my feet is barely on the ground. Pushed too far too long, I've lost all sense of balance, hanging on extreme ends each time, and now everything is just too little too late.
I'm confused, so confused, I'm a playdoh going through constant remould, who am I supposed to be, am I supposed to be me? What is me? I'm so watered down I'm shapeless now.
Mould me back, please...somebody? Nobody.
It doesn't matter anymore.
12:49 PM
AERNIDIUS IS DA BOMB!
HARLEQUIN GIRL♡
May Mon
WANTS
HELLOS/GOODBYES
LINKS
If you cant hear the bass,
then it aint loud enough
(sounds like im just tryna act cool rights,
wrong, this is a bloody fact you ass.)
(short term)
*save up to $1k in bank
(long term)
*burma's democracy.
*a job i'll love
*a tiny tribal/butterfly tattoo =D
*brody dalle